................................................................................................................................. ii TABLE OF CONTENTS ............................................................................................................ iv ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS ......................................................................................................... v Introduction .................................................................................................................................. 1 Chapter 1: Religious Desire and Human Eros: Childhood and Early Adulthood ............... 34 Chapter 2: “That Infidel Place”: Women’s Higher Education, the Crisis of Faith, and Dissident Sexuality ...................................................................................................................... 92 Chapter 3: Familiar Desires: Evangelicalism, Familial Discourse, and Homosexual Subjectivity ................................................................................................................................ 155 Chapter 4: Motherhood: A Class Act? Class, Race, and Empire in the Evangelical MiddleClass Family .............................................................................................................................. 227 Chapter 5: Queer Intimacies: Evangelicalism, Homoeroticism, and Empire ..................... 301 Conclusion ................................................................................................................................. 362 Bibliography .............................................................................................................................. 374 Appendices ................................................................................................................................ 388 Appendix A: Chronology of Constance Maynard‘s Life ...................................................................... 388 Appendix B: Dates of the Writing of the Autobiography ..................................................................... 389